Diary: Filming with Miss Suzanna Maxwell
February 10 2017
One thing I enjoy about a lot of the things I get involved in is that absolutely anything can come from anywhere
There’s stories I haven’t told – maybe one day I will, in the wrong order. But, the idea of some of these blog posts came after I’d been in a position to be like “Hey, do you mind if I write about how awesome You are?”
So. I’d got talking to Mr Dynamite, who is involved in Divine Goddesses and then suddenly, “Hey, send us your details – we’ll see about filming some time”.
So, I sent my details and interests and offer came to film with Miss Suzanna Maxwell.
I took this opportunity with two wide open arms.
I didn’t know loads about Her. But, I had already been following Her because She is filming with Merciless Dominas in March, an opportunity I sadly can not take (my March is shaping to be quite exciting and busy – aaand – it’s going to be easier to take another opportunity with MD in the future…) so I was already in the process of warming towards Her and being disappointed it had been starting to look unlikely.
So, this turn of events was an amazing opportunity.
There was a bit excitement, I mean, I had read Her website but sometimes difficult to gauge what someone is like from just a website – but – among anything else, a quick look that DG had worked with other people who I trust, I felt the whole situation was low risk, but still the excitement of finding out about someone via play.
I like that sometimes, when you’re learning about each other through play together. It’s much more intimate.
An early morning, but largely uneventful journey – W/we are a little late being collected (and I initially feel embarrassed as we were both waiting near each other and I hadn’t seen Her!) as there has been a delivery that Mr Dynamite has taken receipt of.
It’s a throne, which I assist in getting into the dungeon – and a slight kick of excitement it is likely W/we will be the first to use it.
The space is very familiar, I’ve seen it in pics/trailers/clips but, as always, there’s the air of excitement.
Before filming I get chance to chat with Miss Suzanna, She can tell I’m a little bit nervous and She is good at helping discuss thing, She’s reading through my interests/limits list and asking questions which is very helpful – some of my nerves is just usually around being good enough. I don’t know why I worry, I think I’ve always been “good enough” but – She is very reassuring it will be fine.
Filming experiences can be different. I want to stress that I pretty much always enjoy filming – on some filming days, there can be a wait for your scene if there are many subs and it can be an almost random activity, on others you can be continuously shooting but the activities don’t have a flow to them, or sometimes it can feel like a session with the camera rolling.
All approaches can be good and have strengths and weaknesses. Today is like a filmed session.
W/we start with a warm-up using paddles. This is also the first part of O/our getting to know each other phase. She is obviously reading my body, learning what I can take today – and I am learning Her style.
She is very much about pain and pleasure. She stops for regular breaks to move into sensation play, prompting goosebumps as she runs Her nails over my skin.
She is drawing a S on my back, I find this quite intimate and erotic, effectively being marked with Her initial.
I’m reminded in my head of something I’d seen Her post, where she’d written an S in needles on someone’s back and wondering if it was something I could do… I’m not even into needle play… but the idea seems appealing.
After paddling, we move onto caning. I had a bad experience with caning last year, I keep trying to convince myself that it was just one-of-those-days, but worry about one-of-those-days when on camera, despite being caned twice (now thrice) since then! But, by the end of the 31 (Her favourite number) I half wished there was an easy way to signify I could take 31 more… but, let us see how things progress in the future.
Me even having these thoughts is a sign She has some form of control over me. Me wanting to take more for Her already.
W/we took a posed photo after the caning which I adore. I think She looks amazing in it and the colour scheme in the room lights Her up brilliantly.
It’s foot worship next which is always a personal favourite of mine – She mentions afterwards She genuinely enjoys foot worship and – I could tell! She makes me work for Her feet and teases and then allows me to enjoy. I had not sought out pictures of Her feet prior to meeting, so my first experience was as I removed her boots – they’re dainty and small, She has a beautiful tattoo on Her right foot and leg and this is a majestic experience.
Because I get the impression She is enjoying it, it makes me enjoy it more and work harder for Her – and it creates a nice bliss. I love the energy when a Mistress and slave seem to bounce off each O/other.
During this play, I discover one of Her strongest features. It’s Her eyes. I’d not really noticed so much in photographs – but I discover She enjoys eye contact (I like how people are different, I’d previously been taught to avoid eye contact unless invited – but this is an invitation and a half!) and it does, it creates a spark that leaves you weak as you look up to see Her Dominance with a simple look.
Moving around the room, I notice W/we have a lot more rapport as I’m flogged on the cross, there’s a few jokes and some misdirection and play that has hints that are harsh and hints that are sensual.
She notes the S She has been scratching into my back is fading – at this point I was longing to be marked by Her. The idea of having Her initial scratched into me was massively appealing. I’m not sure if it is good form to beg to be marked?!
Some strap-on worship next – I enjoyed this much more than I thought I would. In more ways than one. I think if W/we had done this earlier I may not have been as “into” it – but – as I have said, I am spellbound by this point. Again, Her eyes! I look up and they pierce.
Just writing this has me weak all over again.
The excitement of facesitting, followed by some edging leaves me on the floor, shaking, lapping up spit before W/we move for a big finish.
I feel I’ve served an injustice by skimming over the last few clips W/we shot, despite them being utterly amazing to be part of.
But, I would not normally be so candid over private play, however, in this instance in a few weeks time, you the reader will be able to see O/our entire play – but, I almost feel with that in mind – I want to leave you something that makes you want to purchase these.
Some points, I think, leaves a narration to what is happening in my head which you often cannot tell.
But overall, I wanted to enthuse about how grateful I was for such an opportunity to serve and assist Her.
I imagine the wider scene will see a lot more of Miss Suzanna in the future and for this, W/we can all be grateful.
She was very respectful of my levels and I see this as a sign of a good Dominant. She asserted Her power and Dominance over me whilst not pushing too far – so I think this serves as a good introduction for U/us and I hope the clips will provide many with a good introduction to Her and of course I am extremely excited ideas have been mooted for a “next time” in which I feel driven to push myself more for Her, now She has gifted me a glimpse into Her world.
The BDSM scene has been very good to me – and days like today is another good example