Diary of a slave

14Aug 2016

i am Miss Suzanna’s slave.

i am owned and controlled by Miss Suzanna. She uses me as she wishes.

i am so grateful that She beats me. i don’t enjoy the pain, but i enjoy submitting to my Mistress, and knowing that She owns me and makes me do anything She wants.

i am happy that i know that She derives pleasure from my pain and the marks She inflicts.

It feels so good when She scratches my back before the beatings commence.

She may choose to gag me or tie my hands together. But I would never resist. It is Her right to use me.

She chooses any or all of paddle, whip, crop or cane. i count the blows. 31 is Miss Suzanna’s number, but She may choose to go beyond 31 if She feels like it. i count each blow aloud.

She mainly hits my bottom and thighs, but since my legs are apart, She may choose to hit my balls or cock. Or She may choose to squeeze my balls or cock between beatings.

My body is Hers to do as She wishes.

When the beatings are over, She looks and admires her handiwork. She runs her hand along the most severe of the marks.she has inflicted. She may take photographs.

It is an honour that She chooses my worthless body to use.

If She gets pleasure from the pain and marks She happily gives, i am happy for i know i am unable to give Her pleasure in any other way.

After the beating, I long for Miss Suzanna to fuck me with Her strap-on. For Her to penetrate me. To be possessed by Her.

i give and She takes.

That is O/our life.

i am Miss Suzanna’s slave.

i am owned and controlled by Miss Suzanna. She uses me as She wishes.

 

slave mushroom

June 9 2016

                                                                                               

14Aug 2016

i am a slave owned by Miss Suzanna. She owns and controls my body, my mind and my soul. She owns all my possessions. She uses me. i have no rights. i exist solely for Her pleasure.

Miss Suzanna beats me and fucks my arse. Miss Suzanna controls my orgasms.

My pathetic tiny cock is useless

Increasingly, Miss Suzanna will deny me orgasms. i am only allowed to orgasm if and when Miss Suzanna allows me or orders me to. Whether i am allowed to obtain any pleasure from the orgasm is entirely Miss Suzanna’s decision.   i have no right to expect that She will grant me permission to achieve release. The gap between permitted orgasms will get longer. And most of the orgasms i am permitted will be ruined or immediately followed by a beating. Increasingly, as my orgasms become rarer, Miss Suzanna will provide release by milking my prostate. This will give me no pleasure.

But I am constantly on edge in the hope that my good behaviour will influence Miss Suzanna to grant me pleasure, to achieve my own orgasm. Such are the prizes I seek.

But the only certainties are that Miss Suzanna will beat me and fuck me. My cock will either be taped down as unused or, if not taped, will be available to be squeezed, smacked, whipped or caned.

slave mushroom

June 2 2016

06Jul 2016

How did it start?

W/we met, and i just knew She was the One. i didn’t consciously know i was submissive, but Miss Suzanna was perceptive and She could tell. She was so beautful and intelligent; a young petite lady with long blonde hair and a perfect figure. It would be fun to “let” her dominate me.

At first, i suppose it was just a little beating. And just buy Her some perfume that she said she liked. Then she would order me to buy her a dress and some shoes; then some pink champagne and more shoes. Then more beatings with whips and canes and buying her more and more gifts.

Of course there was the humiliation of my tiny cock. It was useless, never able to get hard. Miss Suzanna continually humiliated me for my inadequacy; my pathetic, useless cock. i was worthless. She would order me to play with myself. At first, i was hopeless. And was incapable of staying hard

Now, as time has gone by through many more beatings, more humiliations, and many many more gifts, i know that i am worthless and useless. Miss Suzanna has given me a purpose in life — to serve Her. The only sex i am allowed is when She orders me to masturbate myself to orgasm. Now i succeed in coming quickly. It is Her decision whether She will allow me to come. If i do, i must eat it.

i am owned by Miss Suzanna. i do what She tells me to do.

How will it progress?

slave mushroom

May 26 2016